Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in strawberries07's LiveJournal:

Monday, May 17th, 2004
7:13 pm	hmmm lol i still dont trust this thing. someone might find it. But w/e okay. lol ugh this is weird. i have soooo much i wanna say to someone, anyone. but i always feel annoying talking about stuff, and i also don't know who to tell. its not like im friendless, there are plenty of people i COULD tell, its just...everyone reacts differently to stuff and there are some ppl well idk lol. Right now there is just no one, thats all. so i've resorted to a virtual peice of paper..again. garg. what to say. Notice i told u why im writting here but not what i want to wrote CUZ I STILL DONT TRUST YOU HAHAHAHA! errr...my dads comming up this weekends, kinda screws stuff up eh? i have a lot to do. and arrrr..w/e. lol. so whats up screen? anything knew...naw didn't think so. SHIT this is pointless. im so affraid someones gonna read it i know. I half want someone to read it but then again i dont. But theres sooo much i wanna say but can't. man this sucks... gr gr gr gr gr (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
5:43 pm	mmm Hola, this is all new so i dunno what im doing right now lol. Anways what's up? Lots of stuff is going on. This journal thing is cool, so long no one i know finds it lol. i think im safe on that one, i didn't use a name anyone knew. okay, so i feel really stupid doing this, what if someone see's it lol risky risky...o well i give it a shot n one knows its me anyways. okay so theres a nice bunch of shiot going on in my life right now. Lets see, my boyfriend, is amazing! Im extremely happy in all aspects almost. Personaly my life is pretty good. My ex-boyfriend and i are really close. I think at times there may be a bit of confusion there. When i went to visit him int he caribbean he seemed a little flirtatious and i dunno maybe my wanting to be friends came off differnt, i dunno i think its all figured out lol. I feel that if im writting i need to complain but i dont have anything to complain about. Im kinda worried about a few of my friends (cough i bet you could figure yourselves out cough) and im nervious about hte future..theres a lot. but i feel akward writting it lol. Well here goes, im worried about my friend LMB. she gets herself all worked up. not like a drama queen but sometimes problems become bigger han they have to. and it worries me because i wan't her to be happy and all so i feel like i need to help and when i don't know, or am un-sucessfull i feel like im a bad friend. Anyways...the future. scray to think about sometimes. i wish i could click fast forward and be there. and rewind if i want. I think the biggest scare of my future what happens when me and ,y boyfriend break up. We have a unique situation. We were best friends before, and now were going ot. We hang out with the same group of friends. and he dated and broke the heart of one of my best friends. Its crazy living! But yeah, when he broke up with my friend he left the "group" for a while. Now shes in boarding school and he has ventured back (yay). But what happens when we break up, i hate thinking of that cuz im so happy right now and i hope he is too. But is he gonna run away again? or is he going to stick it out? and if he does stick it out will he be able to be around me? or will my friends have to choose, if so who will they choose? I know i can handle being around him when its over, even if he dumps me or cheats on me, or hurts me terribly i know i can handle it. Im not saying i wont be upset, but i would never let on to it,a nd i would act normal, im pretty good with that. Suprisingly. i just have this odd feeling he wont be as, i could be waaaay offf though lol, he could have changed since my friend, or this could just be a totaly different situation. who knows. But yeah there, i feel a lot better now that i've told a virtual peice of paper how i feel. Thanks. times are strange. I have myself in another rut, but i will tell you(v.p.) more about that another time. ADIOS AMIGO! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Current Mood: numb Current Music: Rest of my life (Comment on this)